Post #171253 by suicide_sam on Tue, Jul 12, 2005 12:26 AM

It's a little after midnight on Monday night and I am quite drunk once again. I have come to s a decision just now. As of late I have had an absolutely horrible year. Seems like it's from bad to worse every day. It had gotten so bad that I had decided I was going to finish out the year and move away. I just had a realization though. Long Beach is the absolute best place I have ever lioved. If I ran off to some other city becaue I'm miserable I might just be running to go be miserable somewhere else. I have decided that it instead I will fix my situation here. There's allot of stuff that I always wanted to do but just kind of sat back and said it would be cool if I could do this, or how cool would it be if I could get that going. I just deide tostop get my shit together. I am no longer working freelance I am working staff so I have consistent cash coming in although it's less than what I used to make working freelenace. BNut I just started taking on some freeleance on teh side for extra cash. I am frist going to start paying off some of my debts like teh 11 grand I currently owe teh IRS, and start fixing my house up some. I have let it fall off allot in teh last year, and I'm finally going to get my shit together and starty doing more illustartiuon work again. I had talked to gene from Falling cocvos about doing posters awhile back butI never got my shit going. It's time I got my shit together. Give me one year. In one year you will be seeing teh name Fred Haro at Gallery shows. Fuck it, I'll probably hacve to cut down on the drinking. As it stands I'm drunk about 6 nights a wekk. but hey, that just means that wiull be less money going out. I recently looked over my budegt and realize I spend a little over $600 a month on drinking. Don't get me wrong, I'm not going sissy or anything, any trip that takes 12 steps is not worth taking, but maybe I'll cut down a bit and dedicate a little more time to other things. Long Beach is teh best town I have ever been in and it doesn't make snese to leave. I would rather stay here and get my shit together. Give me one year. You'll start to see the name Fred Haro up within one year.