Post #707040 by VampiressRN on Thu, Feb 6, 2014 9:23 PM

PAIN....I am tired of PAIN!!!

I am not happy and I know I shouldn't complain about personal things...I am not one of those victim type people...but maybe bitching will help reduce my mediocre plight. Please be aware that I always compare my ridiculous health complaints to the horrors of our American soldiers fighting for freedom, the child who has lived a life fighting cancer and has never had a normal fun day in their life, the cold matted starving homeless dog cowered behind a dumpster, or any fellow human-being struggling with handicaps.

This year I will turn 60...that in itself is scary...LOL. I just missed a last visit to Trader Dicks in Reno and it will soon be gone. I was sooooo planning on linking up with my best friend and heading down to LA to crawl the Tiki Bars and go to the ITMP...that was going to be my vacation for 2014...well it ain't gonna happen...boo hoo hoo!!!

I'm sure some of you can identify, I am too fond of bad foods and have too much poundage on board...a struggle I tackle every once in a while. Thought it would be a dream to get to a decent weight and have surgery on all the bulging discs in my back...still hoping to do that. Being heavy puts a lot of wear and tear on the joints so of course arthritis is my friend. Have had left hip pain for over 2 years and little limp due to my bad back and sciatica. Around Thanksgiving my left hip really started to bother me. Over a couple of weeks it was excruciating to walk so I drug myself to the doctor. Diagnosed with bursitis, so trying to treat that medically with anti-inflammatories and working at home from my recliner. Things did not improve in December, by early January I went back to my primary who now ordered xrays and referred me to Orthopedics, by this time I am in such pain I am having to use a walker. End of January I go to the Orthopedic Surgeon and he tells me my left hip is shot, no cartilage, bone on bone, it's not going to get better, need to loose some weight and he will replace my hip. I don't take pain medication as I can't be a zombie and as a nurse I know how chronic pain patients can become addicts. Can't comfortably sleep at night, I spend most of the night drifting in an out of sleep in my recliner. My fabulous Tempurpedic bed is not my friend any more and I soooo long to have some decent sleep. I am enrolled in a weight loss class next week, have tried everything in the past so it is never the program...it is the user that fails. Trying so hard to stay positive but it is getting hard.

Anyway, I write all of this as I am fed up with this pain, lack of sleep and moderately pissed that I will not be able to take my Tiki vacation this year. I know I shouldn't be complaining as there are so many other people in the world that have bigger struggles...but DAMNDAMNDAMN

That is all!!! I don't require sympathy, just needed to rant. I now return you to your regularly scheduled life irritations.

EDIT-Swizzle quit fuckin' the newbies, you might pick up something!!!

"Oh waiter, another cocktail please!!!"

[ Edited by: VampiressRN 2014-02-06 21:24 ]