Post #757422 by Tiki Shark Art on Sun, Jan 17, 2016 3:59 PM

cy - Well, I went fishing for some kind worlds of encouragement, and I've very happy to have nabbed a few.
I kinda' needed them that day. Thank you! They helped.
( I had a "yes, you are getting older..." check-up at the doctor. Nothing wrong, for a guy my age. A guy MY AGE... sheesh, I anit a kid no more! )
OK….
Deep breath. I get scared out of my wits before EVERY art show!
Especially at an art show at known gallery - the bigger the gallery the bigger my nervous-artist "freak-out!"
Just part of makin' da' Art, I suppose.

I spend 99% of my time alone, trying to focus on that nebulas thing that will get me to a place where I can "MAKE da' ART"… not always easy.

So, when I suddenly have to deal with one, or with a room full, of folks who all wanna' talk about MY art, or MY paintings, I have a bit of that "introvert" gets thrown into a an "extrovert" environment.
Yep, I get sweaty hands, loose my voice, nervous twitches, say stupid things I groan over inside, every time.
Maybe one day it'll all seem normal, but this whole ARTIST thing is still like a strange dream. Hard to grasp whats happening. What am I supposed to do next? I keep thinking will sit down to make art and nothing will come out of my hands! Like I "USED UP" all of the "ART" I was allowed. This "no more art left " is a reoccurring nightmare.

….Onto nightmares, and dreams.
A old friend, who is known for his writing, told me his best stories came from his dreams.
He keeps a diary next to his bed, and he jots down every dream he can recall.

This painting on this Skate deck is following a "Dream" I had about painting this skate deck! I'm trying to pant it like it was in the dream - really tricky stuff! Nothing seems like the dream, sort of! Then sometimes it all does! Weird!

Here's where we are now. Still painting the skulls. I have a few things left to do to them...

I found out after my first pass of the "wall of skulls" that many of them went off in a "goofy looking" direction, and I had to go back over each and every one and make sure it "looked" serious, or at least, as good as that particular skull could look.

Yes, I have read H. P. Lovecraft's "The Call of Cthulhu". It's one of my favorite stories; it inspired me as a teenager, and is still doing so now.
It's about an overly sensitive artist who dreams about a great giant monster rising up from a sunken city in the South Pacific, and taking over the world…

I look out at this every scenery night; watching for "Dreaming Cthulhlu"!
I was just re-listening to an audio-book of many of Lovecraft's horror/fantasy stories.
Fuel for the fire!

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