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thumper
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California, now in Nevada
Joined: May 05, 2003
Posts: 22
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LOl good point tiki..
I drink because without it Im a prude...very shy and stand offish...
I dont like physical/emotional contact with other people and find it hard to start conversations.
With my ADD and BP its a downward spiral after the first few drinks....If I dont leave when I say, hey lets go..then well...Im going to keep on drinking..
Makes the night life more fun...makes me open up to people .. It makes me normal..
Most people have no idea what its like to be ADD BP with a multitude of social disorders. I just wanna hang out for christs sakes and have fun...if Im not blasted Im going to sick to my stomach from IBS, nervous, might even have an axiety attack.
The alcohol is great..moderation is better...My personality, who I really am can break free.
I want to be a nice person, I want to seem like someone you can talk to, I want my humor to come out in vivid color..But I restrict myself because of social anxiety, fear of rejection and lack of trustworthyness (sp?)Some people go through life without every thinking twice about smiling and saying hello to a perfect stranger..you may think thats normal..Well its not for me..Most people take the simple things of a good social life for granted.
Drinking is bad, I know that..but I just wanna have fun..and I cant without a little help.. Sometimes I take that help a few steps to far..I assume those consequnces..thankfully I have a good husband who also understands.. While I feel bad for putting him through it..at least Im not like that more than twice a month if that at all..
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