Post #34920 by Tiki_Bong on Mon, May 19, 2003 5:57 PM

Thumper,

I can totally relate to what you've said. It's also nice that you feel comfortable talking to us about how you feel inside.

You see, I'm probably alot like you. Besides extreme drinking (the curse of injun blood) and other little peculiararities, I shield myself alot of times by becoming defensive/offensive and with, oddly enough, humor. Many people probably notice it in my posts. But when people get to know me, they see I really am an a-hole (ha ha).

I used to drink so much that I believed I was just committing suicide on the installment plan. If I had to write an autobiography of my 20's, I have to ask someone else what the f*$* I did!

I believe there comes a time in one's life when they find that they are comfortable with themselves, and they begin to open up without chemical inducements. I'm beginning to after only 43 years.

I can't tell you when this begins, it's just that it does for most. For the ones that it doesn't, you'll see their names listed in the newspaper...